If I reflect deeper, I don't think I have been very committed to the Singapore Memory CAS group.
I joined in January with loaded enthusiasm about documenting Singaporean history which I am very interested in. But I think I let a lot of my other commitments, like academics and the arts where I am more actively involved in and demand more of my time, get in the way of producing and staying committed to the project.
I believe that we were supposed to come up with a few pages for the eBook that everyone is contributing to. Honestly as one of my minor CAS projects, I put that very low on my priority list and set about completing everything on that list before I started on my pages. In retrospect. It would have probably only taken me an hour to complete if I had the patience and drive, but sheer laziness and procrastination made me delay it till the last minute.
I will admit that I was tempted to submit a very shoddy piece of work to my peers, which I did complete in time. But I decided against it. I thought about how I would have felt if I were in Shruti or Hsin Yee's shoes if they saw my lack of drive and commitment. So I held back, and submitted, what I think is a better set of pages to them, two weeks late. I know now that I did impede on the project schedule and that in future I should never do this again. Because it is not only doing my peers and this project a big dis-service, but I am also letting myself down. Because I know that I can produce better work than what I am doing now and that I need to up my game on this project even if it is one of my minor CAS projects.
I shouldn't let myself fall into the trap of complacency and procrastination. I find that I am doing that a lot lately even with my academics and that is really an area that I need to change.
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