At this current point, I am beginning to be very stressed up about the Art Cart Project. Our team has been dragging on this CAS project for a very long time and since our last meeting that was close to 5 months ago, we haven't gotten anything accomplished.
Our previous problem still stands, Jia Cheng, who is our leader, has not been delegating responsibilities to me or Wei Qi and for close to 4 months has been pretty silent on this. I know that this is his project, but we have to have some urgency and get something concrete drafted out before the terms come to an end. Wei Qi and I were thinking of taking over this project from him, since he has shown the inability to deliver on his part. We have made some preliminary plans, but as it its the end of Term 3, we have a lot more work on our plates than before. Also, part of me feels as though Jia Cheng should be taking charge of his own project and as much as I want to be a good subordinate and help him do the work. He has to know that as a leader, he does have responsibilities and expectations placed on him, so he must be accountable to them.
As much as he wants to complain about having work to chase I think it is important to note that Wei Qi and I have work on our ends too. We are trying to keep afloat as it is and personally I find that bad time management skills and the inability to keep ahead of your assignments is very irresponsible. The fact that his irresponsibility means that Wei Qi and I have to cover for him and take over for him is ridiculous. Although we know that engaging an external contact for CAS immediately equates to expectations being placed on our shoulders, part of me thinks if I am really doing this for the sake of service, or to uphold the contact and the reputation of SOTA.
I wonder if what I am doing is actually right and if this mindset of mine at this point is the right one to adopt. The mindset of "just getting it over and done with", because such mindsets like that are very apparent in the work that is produced by us. Even though we want to say that we are doing this for the sake of service, are we really? Are we just doing this for the pure sake of maintaining a contact that might benefit us later?
Additionally, as I think about this act of service, I also think about the purpose of service and why we do serve. Around the globe, youngsters like me are engaging in acts of service but are these all genuine? Do we do service because we want to? Or do we do it because it is expected of us? Some people only engage in acts of service because that is what the universities want to see that in us. But part of me always thinks that service should genuinely be from us and not because it is an expectation that we fulfill.
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